What if I Fail?

Have you ever made up your mind that you were going to do something, only to get halfway there and lose all motivation? I would guess we’ve all been there. And if you’re anything like me, you’ve been there MANY times.  So, what in the world should we do with that sense of failure?

Get up! Dust yourself off. And try again.

Here’s what I mean. At the beginning of January, I made 2 goals for myself. Both goals related to my word of the year INTENTIONAL. I wrote down the goals, asked friends to help me stay accountable to them. Then, two weeks into the month, life happened and I fell off the wagon. I allowed myself to take a day off from the goals. Then, one day turned into two. Two days turned into a week. The next thing I knew, it was the end of January and I had failed.

But guess what…my friends didn’t fail me. My God didn’t fail me. I failed. I can’t blame anyone else. Sure, I want to blame it on the 2 year molars causing my son to wake super early several mornings, throwing me off my routine. Or on the fact that the exercises HURT and I was in pain and needed a break. Or on all those names in the geneological listings of the Old Testament…those are hard to read! But the blame doesn’t fall on any of those things. The blame falls on me.

So, what am I going to do? I’m going to get up, dust myself off, and try again! Tomorrow is a new day. It is a new opportunity to be intentional with my time. And God promises me in His word that every morning, His mercies are renewed.

But this I call to mind,
and therefore I have hope:
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
His mercies never come to an end;
they are new every morning;
great is Your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:21-23 (ESV)

Every day, no matter what yesterday held, His mercies are new. No. Matter. What. He is faithful, even when I am not. He loves me, even when I am unlovely. He is merciful, even when I am undeserving of His mercy.

If you’ve failed at your January goals, don’t give up on your 2015 goals. Remember, tomorrow is a new day. You have a fresh, new slate to start over, to try again. Grab hold of that chance, and embrace it. Pray for wisdom, ask your friends to help you, and start anew. Will you fail again? Probably. I will too. And that’s OK. Every time we fail, we have a chance to try again, to learn something, to grow. The only time we truly fail is when we give up.


South Beach Diet, Round 2

I’m no stranger to trying to find my healthy weight.  I’ve struggled with weight and body image for as long as I can remember.  I was a super-shy high school girl, overweight, with absolutely no self confidence.  I continued to struggle with those issues through college, and even into the early years of my teaching career.  When I was asked to be in a friend’s wedding in 2003, I decided it was time to actually do something about my weight.  I joined Weight Watchers and had immediate and amazing results!  I found that actually paying attention to what I was eating made a HUGE difference, and in the 4-6 months that I stuck with the program, I lost 30 pounds.  I was within 10 pounds of my goal weight!  But then, the money ran out.  I could no longer afford to go to the weekly meetings.  I stuck with the plan for a while, but eventually just started eating whatever and whenever I wanted.

Fast forward a few years to 2011.  I decide that one of my New Years Resolutions would be to get healthy and be a better example to my daughter.  I joined myfitnesspal and started tracking my calorie intake and my exercise.  I started doing Wii Fit, and EA Active on a regular basis.  By Easter, I had lost 10 pounds…not terrible, but not great considering that Easter was at the end of March.  The week of Easter, I started reading The South Beach Dietand by the middle of the following week, I was ready to begin.  I loved how this book actually gave me a PLAN to follow…including sample meal plans, a list of foods that I could eat and enjoy, as well as foods that I should be avoiding.  My doctor had recommended this diet to me for several years…and after reading the book I finally understood why.

As a sufferer of PCOS, I am already insulin resistant.  As a typical American, I am a self-proclaimed carb-addict.  Anyone can see those two things don’t really go together very well.  South Beach helped me get rid of my carb cravings, and then slowly reincorporate healthy carbs back into my diet.  Over the next couple of months, I lost an additional 15 pounds, and was feeling really good about myself and my size!  Then…VACATION.

Yep…we went on vacation, and I completely trashed my diet.  I gained 10 pounds in 1 week.  Did I come home and say “It’s OK, Kristal, you can just pick up where you left off.  You’ll get to your goal, but it will now take you a little longer than planned.”?  Sadly, no, I did not.  I came home and continued eating whatever I wanted.  Slowly, I let my weight creep back up.

Now, here we are in March.  For a lot of reasons that I may go into in a later post, I didn’t get to start South Beach back up at the beginning of the year.  I started just over 2 weeks ago.  I cheated a little during the first week and continued to allow myself to have a few small things that aren’t really on the diet (sugar in my coffee, creamy ranch salad dressing…), but then at the beginning of week 2, I decided that I was going to do this right.  So far, I’ve only lost about 4 pounds, but I know that I am eating better!  I am trying new recipes (I may even post a few of those here), and exposing my family to new foods that they may not have ever tried before!  I am committed to doing this, and making the South Beach Diet a lifestyle for myself.  I will be posting periodic updates letting you know how I’m doing, and I am hopeful that doing so will keep me accountable too.  So if it’s been a while and you haven’t heard an update from me, please hit the “Email me” button on the side and tell me!